#MonthofSpreads Day Two: Tell Me Something Good
Card: Ace of Wands
Growth, change, creativity. Ride the wave of energy, but don’t lose sight of good judgement.
I laughed when I drew this card, because I think it’s the most positive card I’ve ever drawn, for the something good draw. I love my deck.
#MonthofSpreads Day One: Past Present Future
My personal card (or signifier) since I was a teenage has been The Star. However, with my new deck for my adult self, I feel more connected to the Daughter of Swords. So I decided to do two readings for this day.
Celtic Dragon Tarot
Signifier: XVII – The Star
Spirituality, hope, listening to inner and universal messgaes
Past: IX – The Hermit (Reversed)
Focus on personal reflection and spiritual self, make time for self, not just day-to-day tasks
Present: XIV – Temperance
Self-control and inner guidance help you through difficulties. Travel provides a new perspective on an old problem.
Future: Three of Swords (Reversed)
Recovery from a difficult period, acceptance of past trauma, understanding of the time needed to heal
Wild Unknown Tarot
Signifier: Daughter of Swords
Insight, knowledge, hypervigilance, anxiety, inability to accept imperfection
Past: Two of Pentacles
Inevitable change that may be frightening but positive
Present: XI – Strength
Courage needed can be found within
Future: Son of Cups
You may be reacting based on impulse or emotion rather than reality. Step back and take stock before acting.
Neither of these decks have reversals as part of their books, but I like trying to read the reversals anyway using internet resources.
All in all, I need to be less impulsive and more in touch with my inner self. I have been hurt, but I am healing. Change happens, but I have a choice how I react to it. I have the courage to weather it.
The first 3 Inktober cards! I’m gonna try to do a tarot deck this year!
XIII DEATH (whalefall)
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I’m so bad at holding back when it comes to buying decks. Lol. I ended up getting the TaRat by Nakisha. This deck is so freaking cute. I love it. It’s also interesting because there are quite a few cards that don’t fit the traditional RWS system. Two of those cards are pictured. The Two of Cups is jealousy and anxiet, and the Two of Pentacles is difficulty, obstacles, and setback. Those meanings come from the foldout that comes with the deck. It’s definitely going to be interesting. So far, I’ve interviewed it, and the deck comes off as a rat. Lol. I thought that might happen since my cat decks are like cats.
I got both the mini and regular sized decks. (The regular is the size of playing cards.) The mini is getting put away for Christmas. I also knew that the decks came with eighteen rabbit art cards. However, the decks came with a bit more. Nakisha also added a card (The Hermit) from the mini version of the Rabbit Tarot, two art prints, and original mini art. That’s so freaking cool. I love it. I have some of the other decks by Nakisha on my Deck Lust list. I don’t know when I’ll end up getting those since they are quite a few others that I want first, but I do know that when I do get them, I’m going to be really happy. I mean, when I got it, I was even messaged that they were going to be shipped the next day and would take 3-5 business days. That’s so nice to know. I mean, I’m still waiting on these pillows that I ordered from someone on Etsy, and I ordered them two weeks ago. (The tracking says that they are still waiting for the package.)
Really happy with this order. Now I just have to think of what to name it. Lol. I could name it after my rat, so I could always have a way to remember him even when he’s gone. I still have a year or two with him. I have another name, Peter, but I wanted to name the second rat I get that. Hmmmm. Lol.
XVIII, moon
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Sitting here feeling the medium-grade anxiety that is my normal, complete with hypervigilant perseveration, and thinking, y’know, I have Valium now. I’ve taken it once since being prescribed it, for a severe anxiety dream that woke me up in a panic, but I haven’t been taking it for the crap I deal with as a matter of course.
So I thought, well, I’ll draw a card first. See what it says.
I shuffled the heck out of my Wild Unknown and drew The Moon, reversed.
Which is basically the card form of saying, yeah, you have fear and anxiety, and you know they’re about illusions, not reality, BUT YOU HAVE TOOLS SPECIFICALLY FOR THIS, YOU INFANT.
So, I took a Valium.
What my decks lack in subtlety they make up for in smacking me upside the head, apparently.
Two amazing things happened yesterday
1) My replacement copy of the Wild Unknown Tarot arrived, and after checking every inch I can confirm it is P E R F E C T.
2) For the first time in my (almost) 36 years on earth, I have talked to a doctor who took my word for it that dinky breathing exercises, yoga, meditation, and talking therapy do fuck-all for my anxiety, and that I need help. So she listened, and without any drama, she gave me my first ever script for Valium. I haven’t cried yet, but every time I think about it, I feel like I’m going to. Now, next time I get a day like Saturday, I don’t have to grit my teeth and ride out the misery and hide in my house. I have something that is going to help me step back from that miasma of fear and panic and just get on with my fucking life. I’m so fucking thankful.
I found a beautiful copy of the Faeries’ Oracle in a secondhand bookshop for $15 a couple of weeks ago. An impulse purchase, but one I felt very strongly was the right decision… and, having just done my first tentative reading with it, I am all the more sure. It’s such a WARM, friendly deck, and Froud’s art is absolutely stunning. And, just to prove my decks are in cahoots, the reading is, I need to be sensible, wise and creative. I need to open myself to creativity, and focus on the dance and flow of it, not get caught up in trying to be perfect.
tarotprose replied to your photo post: WOW. This deck is so gorgeous!!! I am so happy for you. Have a great time bonding with it. Also do you have a favorite card or cards?
It’s really beautiful, truly. I bought it in part because I was getting interested in decks I could use to help me, and also because one of the books I lost recently, that were destroyed, was my edition of Lady Cottington’s Pressed Fairy Book, which was also by Froud. I hadn’t replaced it yet, and though the pictures are different, I knew the deck would be something I could use rather than a book I’d thumb through maybe once a year at most. I don’t have a favourite card yet. Once I know them and their meanings better, then maybe, but right now, the answer’s pretty much ‘all of them!’. 😀
After a few weeks of getting readings about how rotten the last couple of years had been, now I keep getting cards telling me that good things are coming, that I need to chill out and focus on my health, and that all the fear I have is just my anxiety telling me the sky is (still) falling.
tarotprose replied to your photo post: With your consent, sending you good vibes. ♥
Thank you! I’m such a newbie. I started this thinking I’d be maybe the only person using tarot to help organise my thoughts to help my mental health, or maybe the only person who’s an athiest using tarot, or the only queer person using tarot (given it’s traditionally got rigid gender roles/interpretations) and I’m really not. It’s making me feel a lot less alone, knowing there’s a bunch of people out there who are using cards to do something other than telling fortunes. Your good vibes are very much appreciated. 🙂
fan-of-encouragement replied to your photo post: *hugs you*
Thank you! *hugs back*
knitting in the dark 