#MonthofSpreads Day Thirty: Bad Thought Breaker

1. What thought is causing me the most distress?
Ace of Wands
Creativity, potential, enthusiasm

2. What is the root cause of this distress?
Three of Coins
Stability, accomplishment, satisfaction

3. Are there any other underlying issues that are causing these thoughts to take hold of me?
Nine of Coins
Abundance, spiritual fulfilment, security

4. What can I do to take back control over my negative thoughts?
VII – The Chariot
Balance, self-control, being centred.

Thoughts
On the surface this looks like a really strange draw, but to me it makes sense. I’ve been in crisis mode for so long that times of stability seem really threatening to me, so cards that speak of abundance or stability or comfort I’m more prone to mistrust than believe. The only thing that can really help at this point is to maintain what balance I can and maybe, just maybe, at some point in the future, when I’m in a good place I won’t be looking out at the horizon for the next roadblock. I’ll just be enjoying the view.

#MonthofSpreads Day Twenty-six: Card of the Day

Queen of Wands
Fiery, determined, vengeful, ambitious
Respect your emotions but control their expression. Be sure that this is a fight you actually want to have. Plan your engagement accordingly, rather than just jumping in feet first.

#MonthofSpreads Day Twenty-five: The Friendship Finder

1. What block am I facing in regards to making friends?
Three of Wands
Opening up to others, growing, expanding interests and ideas

2. How can I overcome this blockage?
Ten of Wands
Burden, responsibility, completion, sharing the load

3. What kind of people do I need in my life?
Eight of Cups
Stagnation, moving on, dissatisfaction, alone time

4. Where can I go about finding such people?
Knight of Cups
Whimsical, passionate about interests, dreaming, lead by the heart not the head

5. What first step can I take today to be a friend to someone else?
III – The Empress
Nurturing, nature, comfort, gaining pleasure from all the senses

6. How can I open myself up to the idea of receiving friendship from others?
IV – The Emporer
Structure, tradition, fairness, justice

Thoughts
I am a naturally introverted person, and I’m often happy that way, but when I want to be able to share my life with a friend, all I have to do is ask someone to share the load. I’ll still need time to myself to be alone, and the right people will understand that and allow me space. It doesn’t matter if it’s a friendship around a love of something frivolous or silly, just that it engages our passions, grounds us in the thing we love and makes is feel alive. By keeping these interactions to specific people and situations, I can maintain a balance and stay happy.

#MonthofSpreads Day Twenty-five: The Friendship Finder

1. What block am I facing in regards to making friends?
Three of Wands
Opening the self to others, growing, expanding

2. How can I overcome this blockage?
Ten of Wands
Burden, responsibility, completion, letting go, starting over

3. What kind of people do I need in my life?
Eight of Cups
Stagnation, moving on, dissatisfaction, alone time, space to breathe

4. Where can I go about finding such people?
Knight of Cups
Dreams, whimsy, drunk on life, leading with heart over head

5. What first step can I take today to be a friend to someone else?
III – The Empress
Nurturing, nature, creation, indulging the senses

6. How can I open myself up to the idea of receiving friendship from others?
IV – The Emporer
Structure, tradition, everything in its place

Thoughts
I struggle to open up to people. I’m naturally fairly introverted, and generally happy that way, but when I when I do want to, all I have to do is look for people willing to share the load with me. I can’t forget that I do need that separation and solitude, though, and the right people will respect that. I can find these people through the things I am interested in and passionate about. It doesn’t matter if it’s a connection based on something frivolous. What matters is grounding myself in a tangible thing that someone else loves and engaging with them about it. Keeping designated times and spaces for this will help me keep a healthy balance, rather than letting it take over.

#MonthofSpreads Day Twenty-four: The Daily Insight

1. Cards, tell me what I need to know today.
Four of Wands (Reversed)
Good fortune, putting in the effort, generosity

2. Cards, tell me what actions I need to take today.
XIV – Temperance
Moderation, balance, compromise, planning ahead

3. Cards, tell me what I should focus my attention on today.
Nine of Swords
Depression, introversion, fear

Thoughts
I need to know that things are okay, that I’m handling things well, and that I can enjoy myself so long as I don’t lose sight of land. My fears aren’t helpful; they are teaching me nothing. If I step away from them, I’ll be better able to enjoy the place I’m in right now.

#MonthofSpreads Day Twenty: My Needs

1. What do I need today?
Four of Cups
Wishful thinking, short-sightedness, focus on what-ifs not what I have
The LWB meaning for this was about how I needed to focus on others and how I was being selfish, so I binned it for this spread (obviously) in favour of an internet site’s that focussed more on a personal interpretation. It suggested grounding myself in the here and now and in what I have, not just in what I wish or want.

2. How can I go about obtaining or satisfying that need?
0 – The Fool
Fearlessness, innocence, folly, potential
I catastrophise. I look at things and covet them and it’s never enough. That’s what the Four of Cups is saying. The Fool in a positive position of aspiration is about taking the good – the wide eyes of wonder not fear, the openness to experience without any expectation that it’s going to be something new and exciting – well, that’s a good place to start.

3. What can I do to maintain a healthy routine of listening to my needs from this moment forward?
VII – The Chariot
Self-control, balance, duality, self-acceptance and compromise
For a long time I’ve had the pendulum swung all the way back to the edges when it needs to be free to move. I have thought patterns that can make me rigid and miserable and behaviour patterns that can impact on my way of life. This doesn’t mean I should overthink everything or never think about anything at all, just that I need to aim for the happy medium as much as possible. A lot of the Chariot is about self-control, and, like a muscle, the more I practise it, the better I get at it.

#MonthofSpreads Day Nineteen: The Power Within The Tower

1. What do I need to break free from?
Eight of Coins
Stamina, duty, hard work, perfectionism
Usually a card celebrating the benefits of toil and hard long work, this card in this context is pointing to the fact that I have been working too hard and too long for too little reward. While there are benefits to my working, and while it is necessary for me to do some things most of the time, I am working too much and too hard, while others who should be shouldering the load rest easy, or simply fail to realise the load I am bearing. I need to step back and let others take the slack, and if they fail to carry the burden, then sole fault and responsibility does not lie with me. I cannot take the weight of everything for everyone, even if I worry what will happen if I don’t. I need to let go, and let things fall sometimes. It’s okay.

2. What can I build from this freedom once I achieve it?
Ace of Coins
Potential, possibilities, prosperity, beginnings, opportunity
What can I build when I free myself? Who knows! With the time to think and the space to breathe, what I choose to nurture and cultivate is up to me, whether it’s a new thing or an old thing I’ve left fallow for far too long. The benefit will come from the doing, whether it’s gardening or stargazing or getting back to the gym, finally. It’s my choice.

#MonthofSpreads Day Eighteen: The Self

Signifier: VII – Strength
Patience, self-belief, resilience
Yet again, Strength pops up in this deck to bolster reserves and reassure me that I’ve got this. I’d be convinced that it was my personal card for this deck alone if not for…

1. What in my inner persona?
XVII – The Star
Hope, inspiration, self-esteem, generosity
My old friend and personal card of twenty years has popped up to let me know she is still my representative in this new deck. I love the LWB definition of this card. It speaks very strongly to me as-I-was and me as-I-was, and makes me feel the rightness of this deck – and this card – all the more.

2. What is my inner shadow?
Knight of Coins
As a shadow card, I feel this is a fairly positive one. Shadow does not equal evil, rather, it is the counterbalance to light. So the counterbalance to my hope and resilience of The Star is hard work, perseverance and a methodical approach to my goals. To balance dreams and aspirations, I have practicality and determination. A lovely balance of qualities and tools to have.

#MonthofSpreads Day Thirteen: The Good in Thirteen

1. What energy does today bring for me?
Seven of Cups
Choices, options, temptation, illusion

2. Is there anything I need to be aware of?
XI – Justice
Golden rule, karma, cause and effect, long term consequences both good and bad

3. How can I maximise today’s positive potential?
Queen of Coins
Domestic permanency, practicality, generosity, comfort

4. What should I focus on throughout the day?
VIII – Stength
Resilience, patience, stoicism, fortitude, self-belief

Thoughts
Today offers a multitude of choices. Like any day, those choices have the ability to help or hinder me, and those choices can have long term effects. I can maximise today’s potential by grounding myself in my home tasks – the day to day things that help keep life on an even keel. I can do this by tapping into my inner reserves of strength and holding on – with my fingernails and teeth if necessary.

#MonthofSpreads Day Twelve: Strength Definer

I’ve never used this deck before this moment. It’s been waiting in the wings for me to finish reading the author’s quartet of books, which are linked to the deck. (I’m on to book two.) But this read called for strength, and immediately, this deck struck me as the strongest deck I own. So here we are.

1. How do I define strength?
Five of Wands
Defending yourself in the face of opposition, sticking to your guns, upholding self-belief in your own choices and ideas

2. Where do I achieve this strength from?
X – Wheel of Fortune
Cyclical change, this too shall pass, comfort in the seasons of life

Thoughts
I define strength as conviction and holding to the decisions and choices I make, and the ideas I have developed about what is best for me, even in the face of scepticism, ridicule or abuse. Strength comes from knowing things will not remain the way that they are, that sun follows rain, or rain comes after baking sun. There are things I cannot avoid, but I can weather them. That is strength.