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I think a lot of the time the focus on self harm is about the gory stuff. About razors, about scars. And that’s how some people harm, and so it’s good that there are voices out there talking about it. But for me, mostly, these days, self harm looks like this. My nails chewed right down to the absolute limit of my quick. Sometimes I bleed, but mostly it just hurts like hell, and when it gets bad, I am physically unable to stop myself from putting my hands in my mouth. It’s not as dramatic as blood everywhere, but the cycle of shame is the same. My too short nails are just as visible a reminder as the few scars I have. I have chew necklaces, but sometimes they’re not enough. I have icypoles in the freezer, and they’re great, but I can’t eat them continuously. I have nail polish, as a visual cue, but often that’s not enough to overcome the compulsion. I have handcrafts, but sometimes my hands need a break from work. When people see my hands, they see someone with a bad habit, not a person who self harms. They see a person careless with their appearance, not someone whose anxiety has no other channel but against my own body. They see an untidiness, not a bright red scream.

I don’t even

Someone just left a hundreds-of-words long screed against MCU canon and characterisation and fanon and shipping in (multiple) comments on a fic I wrote a few years ago and then was incredibly shocked that I a) saw it and b) replied, telling them to kindly either a) read something else or b) keep their thoughts to themself/their blog/their twitter.

I mean, it’s a comment box. To leave comments. For the author. Did they think they could do the equivalent of taking a dump in my mailbox without me seeing it? It’s not a fucking Tumblr reblog. It’s a direct comment. To me. About my story.

Also, the whole thing was completely without a) full stops and b) coherent trains of thought.

It’s too early in the day for this shit.

Please, from the bottom of my heart, keep this kind of shit out of your comments on people’s fanworks. It’s not helpful. It’s downright depressing, and all authors take away from it is that you hate everything that they wrote about and carefully tagged for, but you chose to read it and get angry about it anyway. Why would you even read something you know you will hate? Why would you then rant to the author about hating it? Why? Do you know you can read things you like? Do you know there’s a thing called outside? Do you know chocolate exists? And ice cream? Those are pretty good. Please consume those instead. Thanks.

THEY ARRIVED TODAY!!!

Every Heart a Doorway and Down Among the Sticks and Bones, Wayward Children #1 and #2. (Beneath the Sugar Sky is on pre-order.)

Here you see them in their covered, ready-to-shelve state. (Yes, I cover my hardbacks, so sue me.)

I know the best way to support authors is to buy new, but that often isn’t an option for me, because of various reasons. However, this Christmas, I will be contributing to feeding your cats, as we made the decision to buy Wayward Children 1 & 2 and pre-order 3! Also, I am going to poke my library to get 3 as well – they had 1, and bought 2 on my suggestion. It’s only fair they have 3 too. :)

seananmcguire:

Oh, absolutely.

When an author–myself included–is saying “please buy my book,” please imagine a tiny asterisk after which is written “unless you are fiscally unable to do so right now, in which case we still love you, and we totally understand, because holy cheese, sometimes the power bill has to come first.”  Other great ways to support authors:

* Libraries
* Leaving reviews
* Telling your friends about the book
* Telling your enemies about the book
* Destroying your enemies with the book
* Using the book as kindling to burn the bodies of your enemies
* Buying another copy from the used bookstore, thus keeping them in business while you find a new enemy

I am so thrilled that you’re able to buy new this holiday season, and my cats thank you as well.  🙂

tarotprose:

After work today, I ended up at Five Below with my friend Kay. We were looking around for a last minute Halloween costume for her and I happened to spot a Tarot deck…. A Tarot deck for $5.00! It is called Secrets Of Tarot by Amanda Hall. I know how popular my post about the $3.99 Tarot deck from Spirit Halloween was so I wanted to share this one as well. This deck comes with a full-color wire-bound guidebook and a 78 card deck. The cardstock is on the thin side but for the price, I do not mind it at all. The card images look digitally aged, the backs are beautiful and each card has a little phrase on the bottom. I think this Tarot kit is a fabulous deal for those who are looking for a deck on a budget, someone wanting to buy their first deck, a second or spare deck. A deck to gift to someone or a deck to use for artwork. This is also would make the perfect halloween/samhain gift.

If this post has helped you, or you know a friend who may gain help from this post, feel free to share the post, reblog it, or tag them. It would mean a lot to me.

If you would like to purchase this deck online, from the same in person shop I purchased mine, you can do so HERE.

Also funny tidbit… I think this was actually @static-chaos‘s first deck if I am not mistaken?

Post Notes:
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Deck: Secrets Of Tarot
FTC: This post is not sponsored by Five Below. This Tarot deck was paid for by my own monies. This post does not include any affiliate links.

I just bought this deck based on this recommendation! QBD in Australia has this for $12.99AUD. (I got it essentially for free, because I used my loyalty card credit to buy it.)

Hey, I saw a copy of the Wild Unknown tarot deck in my local bookstore, and I thought of you. How are things?

Things are okay? Tiring, but okay. We just came home from New Zealand, after two and a half weeks overseas, and just this morning my brother and his family moved out of this house and got on the road for their cross-state relocation. So for the first time in about six weeks, our house is free of kids. It’s brilliant. An absolute tip, but brilliant. It’s so quiet. So much cleaning to do, but I have the time and the space to do it now. I plan on attacking each room in turn and having lots of uninterrupted baths.

Aside from that, my computer and phone both just died in quick succession, so I have new devices to set up to my desired specs, all while I catch up on months of overdue tv and movie watching and knit something for myself for once.

I’m exhausted, broke, and have about seven hundred things to do before I can breathe (somewhat) easily, but I know I can do it, given enough time. So my attitude and mood is okay I guess? But I’m not starting on the bulk of it until later. Not today. I have a migraine. So, knitting and Once Upon A Time is is.

How are you?

(I hope you don’t mind me posting publicly, I’ve just been so quiet lately, and this summarises things neatly for anyone else following.)