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jabberwockypie:

Ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck this hurts. This hurts so much and I want to scream, but that would be impolite.

Positive or fluffy or nice distractions welcome!

Bob Ross on Youtube

Due South Full Length Pilot on Youtube
Due South Season One on Youtube

Weightless by Marconi Union (anti-anxiety ambient music – I use this a lot)

Miracle Modus stimming fractal app by and for autistic people

If you can afford them, Emma recommends The Room series of games, Bejeweled Classic, and Machinarium (though I’d have a walkthrough on hand for the last one, to avoid frustration if you can’t find a solution to a room quickly).

I love Alphabear, Candy Crush, 2048, Cut The Rope, Monument Valley, Contre Jour and Blendoku. Drawn and Chocolatier are good, solid series of games, too, but they’re older. Both are available through Big Fish Games. Sorry, most of this list aren’t free, but they’re ones I go back to when I’m stressed and overwhelmed. I also have a Mah Jong app and a bunch of other puzzle style games.

JABTalk is a free android app for communication. It’s programmable for your needs, and might help if you find the stress and pain are making basic speech harder than usual.

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karpad:

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arinrowan:

toastoat:

met-greekroman-art:

Limestone votive pine cone, Greek and Roman Art

The Cesnola Collection, Purchased by subscription, 1874–76
Metropolitan Museum of Art, New York, NY
Medium: Limestone

http://www.metmuseum.org/art/collection/search/242331

Hee hee

For ritual purposes.

*nods sagely* Definitely some very important rituals going on there.

Guys this thing is 7” in diameter. If you can get that into your ritual use more power to you. It will almost definitely require prayer.

also, it’s limestone. porous, flakey, gritty limestone. Genuinely a terrible idea.

While Sam makes a valid point, I think it’s also worth noting that something being a terrible idea has, historically, stopped very few humans from Doing The Thing.  As evidenced by emergency rooms across the country.

Hey, guys, maybe it’s actually a votive, like it says. But of a butt plug. (You cannot tell me the Greeks and Romans didn’t make butt plug offerings.)

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iamshadow21:

jabberwockypie:

Just curious, did anybody else who had an abusive childhood absolutely ADORE stories where a girl would, like, be in an absolute SHIT situation and have to create a cozy, safe place for herself?

A Little Princess is KIND OF the thing, but also kind of isn’t, but it’s close enough.  Secret Garden is A LITTLE BIT?

Mandy by Julie Andrews

Some of Scott O’Dell’s stuff, though the NATURE of the shit situation is a little different

And I know there were more of them, but those are the ones I can see clearly in my head.

A Little Princess. The Secret Garden. Anne of Green Gables. Emily of New Moon. Jane Eyre. 🙂

I think I like Mansfield Park for a similar reason, but I only read that as an adult.

From your tags, I don’t think “rags to riches” is QUITE the term I want here.  Some of them fit that, yes.  But the concept I’m thinking of is … creating a safe space to just BE and to be comfortable and to be yourself, a place that will shelter you from all the bullshit you’re dealing with in your life.

It’s more … okay, there’s a quote I like from Captain Awkward where they’re talking to a person who is being abused, hold on.

“
Listen:  In the future, there is a small, quiet room that is just yours,
where you are safe and you are free. In that room your shoulders will
finally start to come down from around your ears.  Nobody can come into
that room unless you let them.  In that clean quiet place, you will work
and you will study.  You will love and you will heal.  I know this is
true because I am there with you.  We are there together because you
saved us.  You saved us because you were brave and because you never
stopped believing in that room.

“

And that’s a little closer to what I mean.

In some of the stories I’m thinking of, the protagonist goes “Okay, I need X thing.  How do I make X thing?” and the story goes on to detail how she makes the thing.  (Which, considering all the crafting I’ve done, is appealing.)

… See, if there was a story like this in a SF/F setting, I’d have read it until the book fell apart.

Oh crap.  Apparently I have a writing idea.  WTF.

Yeah, I didn’t mean rags to riches in that the riches were material wealth, more that they gained security, love, etc. Going from an emotional and spiritual wasteland and abusive void to a place where they were strong and healthy and happy. I just was trying to think of tags, and put that one on even though it wasn’t 100% what I meant, because I couldn’t think of better.

jabberwockypie:

Just curious, did anybody else who had an abusive childhood absolutely ADORE stories where a girl would, like, be in an absolute SHIT situation and have to create a cozy, safe place for herself?

A Little Princess is KIND OF the thing, but also kind of isn’t, but it’s close enough.  Secret Garden is A LITTLE BIT?

Mandy by Julie Andrews

Some of Scott O’Dell’s stuff, though the NATURE of the shit situation is a little different

And I know there were more of them, but those are the ones I can see clearly in my head.

A Little Princess. The Secret Garden. Anne of Green Gables. Emily of New Moon. Jane Eyre. 🙂

I think I like Mansfield Park for a similar reason, but I only read that as an adult.

jabberwockypie:

PTSD is your brain trying to make sure you DON’T DIE.

Humans are really good at adapting so that we don’t die.  That’s kind of our whole *THING*.  We adapt.

If something BAD and SCARY and DANGEROUS happens, your brain tries to teach you to react better next time.  If the Bad Scary Dangerous thing happens a lot, that’s reinforcing it.  With CPTSD, the Bad Scary Dangerous thing happened often enough and frequently enough that your whole psyche developed around it.

You learn to notice the tiny things that signal the Bad Scary Dangerous Thing might happen – even if you don’t consciously know that you know that – so that you are braced to react and defend yourself.  They become triggers so that you are primed to respond.

Hypervigilance? Better to panic unnecessarily than to get dead because you didn’t recognize a threat in time, right?  It’s uncomfortable and a waste of energy but you’re not dead.

Nightmares about the Bad Thing?  Dreams are PRACTICE.  You are trying to learn how to react better or faster or more effectively next time.

Avoidance? Dissociating is better than just completely breaking and shutting down entirely.

The thing is, even if you are not in that situation anymore, your brain did not get the memo.  It is trying! But it takes a lot of work to convince it that “No really, it is safe now!”

I guess what I’m saying is cut yourself some slack.  You are doing your best and you’re not dead. ❤

Back atcha, sweetie. You said it better than me, and you need to hear it from someone besides yourself. (I know I do.)

1) Why did you choose your URL?

Way back in the heyday of Angelfire, when you chose your URL, you had to choose from a set handful of two-letter combinations and then your chosen handle went on the end. ‘ia’ was one of the options, so I chose that and made my username ‘mshadow’. The 21 is because I like the number 21 and because some websites I’ve created accounts with, iamshadow has already been taken.

2) What is your middle name?

I don’t give out personal information, but I will say that it’s old-fashioned. Like my first name, which a couple of you know, it’s a name people associate more with old ladies than people in their thirties. I was given it because there were people with that name a few generations back on both sides of my family tree.

3) If you could own a fairytale/fictional pet, what would it be?

I used to want a pocket-sized dragon. Common, maybe, but no less awesome for it.

4) Favorite color?

Right now, probably purple, but I have strong loves for peacock blue, duck egg blue, jade green and cool yellow.

5) Favorite song?

I don’t really have one? I have very eclectic tastes and have handfuls of songs I like in many genres. If I had to pick one I come back to a lot, even though I don’t listen to a lot of electronic music, it’d be Massive Attack’s Teardrop. It was on one of my Triple J’s Hottest 100 albums that I bought around the time I left school, and I found it soothing to listen to on repeat while I was writing, many years before I was dignosed autistic and learned that aural stimming was a thing. I still use it sometimes when I get anxious to mellow me out and calm me.

6) What are your top three fandoms?

Right now, Marvel/Avengers is my primary, but I dabble in Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries, CSI, Sherlock Holmes, Agatha Christie’s Marple/Poirot, White Collar, Welcome To Night Vale, and Endeavour/Inspector Morse/Lewis.

7) Why do you enjoy tumblr?

I love the fan content, especially the amount of visual media and meta.

8) Tag all 9 of your tumblr crushes (they have to do all 8 questions too who can do this if they like)

No obligation for anyone to do this at all (I rarely do memes myself), but people I love dearly and follow avidly on Tumblr include: @actuallyclintbarton @jabberwockypie @kath-ballantyne @randomyayness @neurowonderful @spiralstreesandcupsoftea @the-wordbutler @literalbookworm and @copperbadge

jabberwockypie:

When I snap a wooden knitting needle, it MIGHT just be you know, stuff happens.  So I switch to metal for a bit.

When I BEND A METAL NEEDLE IN HALF, I’m probably too stressed out to be knitting.

*headdesk*

I originally purchased a Knitpro Spectra kit with beautiful rainbow acrylic tips. I stress fractured a pair of tips in six days. Fortunately, I was able to negotiate a replacement/upgrade to a Nova kit with nickel/brass tips, which are a bit more hard-wearing. Still, this is how my 3.25 pair looked after I finished the Forest Path Stole commission two days ago.