Tag: hoarding

jabberwockypie:

iamshadow21
replied to your post “Sheetrock Guy is doing things upstairs. It’s not QUITE a PTSD response…”

We just recently had about two months worth of demo/renovation here at mum’s house, and… yeah. The back verandah (I think you’d call that a deck?) and the main bathroom. Really fucking exhausting when your whole body is poised to run for weeks and weeks for no reason.

*NOD*  Previous upstairs tenants set off my PTSD a few times because they were assholes, so it’s been kind of an Adventure in Coping and Not Stabbing Anybody Because Murder is Bad, Even If They Are Assholes.  But the noise of Footsteps Up There is still tricky.

I am TENTATIVELY doing a bit better today, but I’ve only been fully conscious and upright for about 20 minutes.

With me, it really varies day to day how well I do. I suspect today will be sucky because we have yet another skip to fill with yard garbage. Teenage boys from mum’s church were meant to come YESTERDAY to help fill it and nobody showed, so now, somehow me and mum have to wrestle things like posts with concrete footings into a skip by ourselves. (They probably weigh nearly as much as me.) I’m just so done. I mean, when it’s all gone, I’ll actually be able to use the garden again and things, but right now, I’m just over it. I expect at least tonight I’m going to be dissociating like fuck because this kind of work now makes me space the fuck out thanks to clearing my uncle’s hoarder house in two days the other year.