Tag: executive dysfunction

pan-left-close-on-the-steeple:

Adhd is not always genius level white boys whith tons of energy and fast reflexes
Sometimes it’s
Executive dysfunction so bad you couldnt shower for over a week
Or
A queer kid who thinks they’re broken because they dont fit the narritive.
Adhd is not always a gift in disguise, it can be debilitating
and alienating
and self esteem crushing.
How many times have you heard the phrase
“Not working to your full potential”?
Listen, im sorry if i didnt do my homework, but i didnt eat dinner until 11pm because i couldnt find the motivation to make anything.
I once repeatedly put off and forgot sending a thank you email to someone i had interviewed for a month.
It took me 3 weeks to make myself write a short essay, but once i did it, it took an hour. I got a 94% on the rubric, but failed because it was so late.
I have dealt with years of working through the voice in my head saying
Im lazy im lazy im lazy im bad im dirty im useless ill never amount to anything
Years of fear that i wont be able to survive on my own, that i’ll be too late and too disorganized and unmotivated.
I had to teach myself that motivation and productivity dp not define my worth. That being “lazy” doesnt make me less of a human being.
So sorry if your quirky hyper white boy narrative doesnt do it for me.

ruffboijuliaburnsides:

maltedmilkchocolate:

Time blindness is the weirdest aspect of executive dysfunction and so weird as an experience to live with.

It’s like you see the clock, the clock says 3pm, you look at the clock again and it’s 3:02, then 3:05, and then you look again and it’s 8pm and WHAT THE FUCK.

You don’t even need hyperfocus. But hyperfocus is like the Warp Speed:tm: version cause when that hits, it’s 3pm and then it’s the next day and why is the sun rising and when did i last eat and oh god i need to use the bathroom. And oh, also, you’re EXHAUSTED. The act of your brain tunnel visioning on something drains you (but that’s another topic).

Time blindness is…. having the general knowledge that today is Wednesday, and you need to do something on Thursday. Thursday is logically tomorrow, but the mysterious void of time is like ‘that’s like next week or something.’ 

It’s knowing you have to do something in three weeks on the 21st. And as the days creep closer, the 21st is stuck in a constant state of still being 3 weeks away, despite the fact it’s now tomorrow.

It’s wild. ADHD is literally living in a constant state of “There is Now. And there is Later.” and there’s no in between; no dates, no times; no hours, weeks, or months. It’s just Now and Later, and oh god why is is X o’clock already!?

Holy shit someone actually described my relationship with time wtf.

This was something I thought everyone experienced in my prediagnosis state, until I wrote about it in a short story and a teacher told me it was bad writing because ‘time doesn’t do that’.

yourunderwaterskies:

One of the biggest ADHD moods is wanting to watch things, but no. You gotta check this, you gotta go get a drink, do some backflips, notice the floor tiles, get a snack. Get a drink. Get another drink. Get some exercises in.

The one episode is paused halfway and now you gotta go to bed. It’s one of 50 tabs of half-finished fics, articles and youtube vids you wanna watch. But the ADHD is demanding cartwheels and the checkening of social media.

You’re behind on all your shows or other media because 5 minutes in and your brain suddenly shifts and you GOTTA DO STUFF. 

Replace cartwheels with pacing and yeah, it me.

adhd spring cleaning gothic

adhdpie:

adhdpie:

  • you have 12 socks left. none of them match.
  • you dust the lid of a box and open it for the first time in years.  when you gaze upon the objects inside, a soft golden glow reflects upon your face.

    Everything in the box is absolutely vital to your existence. You do not know how you went on without them nor how you could part with them now. You smile gently, your eyes smoldering. No; you could not throw away a single thing in this box.  You close the box again with a sense of satisfaction and return it to its place. The smolder in your eyes dies away.

    according to your mobile phone, 3 days have passed.you have no idea what is in the box you just put back.

  • there is a book on every hard surface in your home. Each book is different. Each book has a bookmark at page 271. when you look directly at the book on your coffee table, it disappears.
  • you start to organize your desk. you start to organize your nightstand. you start to organize your dresser. you start to organize your kitchen cabinets. you start to organize your bathroom sink. you start to organize.
  • you are playing a cell phone game on your couch. nothing is organized.
  • your room is finally clean – all surfaces are dusted, all clutter is gone, all clothes out of sight, all books off the tables. Everything is gone. (You think you can hear the faint sound of chewing from the dresser drawers.)
  • you have 27 socks spread out on your clean floor. none of them match.

i edited it and now it’s somehow creepier

Also, you say spring cleaning when this is just me trying every day to do something. Is every day spring? Am I cleaning? Everything is important, especially that random box stuff and all those halfread books. Oooh, Candy Crush.

jabberwockypie:

fittingoutjane:

adhdteacherthings:

I used to do things pre-diagnosis and think to myself, “adults don’t do that.” Adults don’t scooter on the backs of shopping carts or lay upside down on the couch or jump up and down while watching TV. But after I got diagnosed with ADHD I realized that adults DO all those things, cuz here I am doing all these things and I’m an adult.

So basically what I’m trying to say is, don’t shame yourself into not doing harmless things that make you happy just cuz you think people your age shouldn’t do it.

It’s not just the harmless happy things, it can also be things you need.  I used to think about ways that I could manage my ADHD better, or ways that other people could help me, and I’d draw a blank.

I’ve recently realized that this is because I had a lot of ideas when I was younger, and people told me I was wrong. No, I couldn’t write my homework down on my hand, I should use a notebook that could get lost at any moment. No, I couldn’t have my school assignments reduced to a more manageable length as long as my test scores stayed up. No, that’s not the way, that’s too weird, fix the problem, but NOT LIKE THAT.

Sometimes, those things you aren’t supposed to do are exactly what you need to do.

Also, lying upside-down activates your parasympathetic nervous system.

Which is REALLY USEFUL if you’re ramping up to a panic attack, because it’ll help stop it!

… I never realised my lifelong habit of lying on sofas and chairs almost upside down was unconscious anxiety management. Noted.

ivystudying:

It’s been a while since I’ve made a post, and I figured that these tips might be extra helpful with exam season approaching. As someone who struggles a lot with procrastination, I do everything I can to fight the urge to put assignments off until the last minute (even though I’m not always successful). 

As always, good luck! (ᵔᴥᵔ)

Reblogging this for the neurodiverse people on my flist, some things here that are useful for peeps who struggle with executive function and planning.