autonomy – knitting in the dark

#no one can tell me that he doesn’t enjoy or relish the mission – not so much the killing part which is the end goal – but the overall proces #the stalking; the finding; the honing; the strategy; calculating his trajectories and picking his weapons and following and executing #the orders to an t; and GIVING orders himself to the men who’d put a bullet in his brain if he so much as twitched #out of protocol; being able to give orders in the first place and being able to decide what gets done next #there’s a level of autonomy he gets running a mission than he gets anywhere else; and it’s only on a mission #that it looks like he really knows what’s going on – every other time he’s a child waiting for a hiding #the winter soldier is not a spy and the winter soldier is not an undercover agent; the winter soldier isn’t an AGENT as in #he has no agency; he probably doesn’t know how to keep himself alive for an extended amount of time without an extraction team #he’s a gun that you just point and shoot; but he’s still a person under that and even if he doesn’t understand it – #he’d relish the agency. he’d relish the momentary freedom he gets no matter how meaningless and small it is