Tag: actuallyautistic

So, my Fitbit finally arrived! For those following the saga, yes, this is the Fitbit that I ordered through redemption in OCTOBER. My gym finally sent an email out that they were no longer with the promotion company and my Fitbit was on its way. Less than a week later…

So far I really like it. It seems to track my workouts fine. I’m a bit frustrated at the app, at finding the stats I’m used to seeing. I’m unused to thinking of my workouts in steps, not distances. I never had pedometer measurements from my phone.

One amusing thing is that apparently if I rock at the right intensity it counts as steps. Which I guess, yeah, it’s burning energy.

Also, my resting rate if sitting up seems to be 80-100bpm, which I guess is the anxiety. I mean, it’d be nice if I was actually burning fat sitting on my couch feeling afraid of everything, but I doubt it.

letters-to-lgbt-kids:

My dear lgbt+ kids, 

This letter is for all of you who stim. 

You’re not “crazy” or “weird”. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with you. 

Stimming is completely natural and normal – not only the kinds of stimming other people may consider aesthetic, such as glitter slime or paint mixing, but also hand-flapping, pacing, rocking, chewing etc. 

You’re lgbt+, on the autism spectrum and stim? You’re lovely. 

You’re lgbt+, have sensory processing disorder and stim? You’re lovely. 

You’re lgbt+, have anxiety and stim? You’re lovely. 

You’re lgbt+ and stim? You’re lovely! 

With all my love, 

Your Tumblr Mom 

PS: “Wait, what is stimming?” Stimming is self-stimulatory behavior – 

repetitive behaviors with which people stimulate and calm themselves. By repeating one stimuli, they block out other stimuli and avoid over-stimulation. It’s most prevalent in people with the above mentioned conditions. 

aestistic:

because i’ve ordered one and gotten it today, cheap tangle link!! $2.99 USD, aka cheap for australians! free shipping!

tangle – it’s an ebay link. link takes you to an ebay.com link with the tangle, hopefully free shipping to MOST locations.

you can specify colours, if you don’t they send you a random colour.

That listing is now out of stock (I got the last couple) but this one is the same price, free shipping!

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Fiddle-Fidget-Stress-Relief-ADHD-Autism-SEN-Sensory-Help-Stop-Smoking-Toys/222401675896?_trksid=p2047675.c100623.m-1&_trkparms=aid%3D222007%26algo%3DSIC.MBE%26ao%3D1%26asc%3D20160323102634%26meid%3Dc278791124b648c1a6149a91374ca87a%26pid%3D100623%26rk%3D3%26rkt%3D6%26sd%3D302177005162

So apparently my subconscious self decided I was lacking in ‘pink’ in my diet when I went shopping earlier.

I also bought cooked prawns, sweet potato, and radishes, but at least they were on the shopping list.

Actually super excited for the cordial, because I like pink grapefruit in juices and things, and Bickfords do gorgeous cordials.

So today is a bad day. I just had a bath with my Sakura bath bomb, @kath-ballantyne is making me food, and we may make pear ice cream later with the little corella pears that never ripened that she put in to roast in the oven.

Which is all lovely. But it felt like the hardest thing in the world to even move. I couldn’t go to the gym even though the exercise might help because just the thought of leaving the house made me feel like I couldn’t breathe.

When I get like this it’s paralysing. I know I’m hungry but I can’t do anything about it. I am literally unable to open my mouth and say, “I need food.” The words are there, the need to eat is there, but I cannot speak, let alone go to the kitchen, look at what we have and come up with a meal, even if that meal is just juice drunk from the carton.

I can’t focus enough to read, even when I know escapism would be helpful. I can’t game. The will to do things is there, but the actual ability is as inaccesible to me as if I never had it at all.

I left the water in the bath. I may get in it again later, if I need to.