I think a lot of the time the focus on self harm is about the gory stuff. About razors, about scars. And that’s how some people harm, and so it’s good that there are voices out there talking about it. But for me, mostly, these days, self harm looks like this. My nails chewed right down to the absolute limit of my quick. Sometimes I bleed, but mostly it just hurts like hell, and when it gets bad, I am physically unable to stop myself from putting my hands in my mouth. It’s not as dramatic as blood everywhere, but the cycle of shame is the same. My too short nails are just as visible a reminder as the few scars I have. I have chew necklaces, but sometimes they’re not enough. I have icypoles in the freezer, and they’re great, but I can’t eat them continuously. I have nail polish, as a visual cue, but often that’s not enough to overcome the compulsion. I have handcrafts, but sometimes my hands need a break from work. When people see my hands, they see someone with a bad habit, not a person who self harms. They see a person careless with their appearance, not someone whose anxiety has no other channel but against my own body. They see an untidiness, not a bright red scream.
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A Dangerous Secret
As for “Write what you know,” I was regularly told this as a beginner. I think it’s a very good rule and have always obeyed it. I write about imaginary countries, alien societies on other planets, dragons, wizards, the Napa Valley in 22002. I know these things. I know them better than anybody else possibly could, so it’s my duty to testify about them.
Ursula Le Guin
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a bunch of moms are making letters+audio recordings of affirming, validating letters to queer/trans* people who don’t get that kind of support from their moms
i would say more about it but
im kind of busy in this puddle of tears on the floor so
In case any of my followers don’t have this kind of support from home…
my mom did this and if you need an honourary mother i promise she would be happy to talk to you
As someone who came out and has lived for close to twenty years without this affirmation and support from my mother, this is super important.
(Image Description: Black background with blue and yellow lettering reading “What were your favorite LGBTQIAP+ books you read in 2017?”. Along the side, in white lettering, reads “Happy New Year!”)
We can’t believe 2018 is right around the corner! We want to know YOUR favorite LGBTQIAP+ books you read in 2017, whether they were 2017 books or older books you’ve just discovered! Comment or reblog to share the YA Pride!
THE ART OF STARVING
HISTORY IS ALL YOU LEFT ME
NOT LIKE IT’S A SECRET
WE ARE OKAY
NOT YOUR VILLAIN
WILD BEAUTY
A LINE IN THE DARK
CROOKED KINGDOM
NOTEWORTHY
RAMONA BLUE
LITTLE & LIONThat’s all I can remember from the top of my head but !!
This is an amazing list!!
Just to add a few…
-Autoboyography by Christina Lauren
-Release by Patrick Ness
-They Both die at the End by Adam Silvera
-The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee
-The Love Interest by Cale Dietrich
-The Inexplicable Logic of My Life by Benjamin Alire Saenz
-At the Edge of the Universe by Shaun David Hutchinson
Here’s to an even better book-year in 2018!
We’re definitely looking forward to 2018 releases! Make sure you check out Dahlia’s (of @lgbtqreads) list of YA LGBTQIAP+ releases for the first half of 2018 on BN Teen!
right off the top of my head i have
10 Things I can See From Here
Song Of Achilles
In Other Lands
Girl Mans Up
When the Moon was Ours
Symptoms of Being Human
So many great books!! Thanks for sharing!
Simon vs the Homosapiens Agenda/The Upside of Unrequited
Ash/Huntress
Carry On
10 Things I Can See From Here
Every Heart A Doorway/Down Among The Sticks and Bones
Six of Crows/Crooked Kingdom
Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe
Concept: The global revolution has long since passed. There’s no more fighting, no more struggling, no more unnecessary deaths. I live peacefully on a cottage in France. We all have our own gardens, and fully installed renewable energy. The effects of global warming are finally being reduced. Wild animals roam free and occasionally visit. All information is accessible and the world population gradually becomes more literate, educated, and compassionate. I’m smoking weed and nobody can stop me. I cuddle with my dogs and cats and bunnies. Life is full of love and nothing is preventing me from enjoying it to the fullest. I’m no longer depressed or anxious. My family is safe. Now I can finally say the future generations will live in a better world. I no longer feel bad for bringing new life into our world. Everything is just as it should be.
This is what we fight for: peace, meaningful peace, to be experienced and enjoyed by all mankind. We fight to be left alone, to live without mental torment or material insecurity, and to be allowed to pursue whatever path we wish to take. On a certain level, our dreams are unique and diverse, yet on another, grander level, we seek a singular and universal end. We seek life.
Here is the link to help this young Black kid
Tumblr do the right thing
I’m not able to join because I have fibro, but if you see this, please check if you can register!
concept: a TV show with a dark, tragic, fucked-up beginning that steadily gets happier and lighter and more hopeful as the seasons go on, the narrative arc premised on healing and growth instead of a “gritty” downspiral, the challenges faced in each season finale leaving the characters in a progressively better place. nobody queer dies, and the worst things we ever see after season 1 all happen in flashbacks to events preceding the now.
I would love to see this.
@ebres this sounds so lovely ne?
More proof everyone thinks of heterosexuals as expendable. Nobody queer dies? What makes them more special than anyone else? You want only the straight people to die then? In post apocalyptic worlds ANYONE can die, doesn’t matter what your orientation is.
Congratulations! In the 60K notes on this post, you’re the only person to uncover my Sekrit Heterosexual Death Agenda. Truly, my comment had nothing whatsoever to do with the obscene number of gratuitous queer deaths in mainstream TV shows which under-represent queer characters in the first place while still over-representing their tragedies, and everything to do with my nascent desire to watch straight people suffer. The fact that I never mentioned straight people or post-apocalyptic stories and was expressly talking about narratives predicated on positive growth in PLACE of suffering was just a cover, and I commend you for seeing through it.
y’all need to watch Leverage
that adhd RAGE when someone says ‘you’d remember if it was important to you’
the complicating crushing self-hate factor if you also have ptsd with dissociative features
I don’t even
Someone just left a hundreds-of-words long screed against MCU canon and characterisation and fanon and shipping in (multiple) comments on a fic I wrote a few years ago and then was incredibly shocked that I a) saw it and b) replied, telling them to kindly either a) read something else or b) keep their thoughts to themself/their blog/their twitter.
I mean, it’s a comment box. To leave comments. For the author. Did they think they could do the equivalent of taking a dump in my mailbox without me seeing it? It’s not a fucking Tumblr reblog. It’s a direct comment. To me. About my story.
Also, the whole thing was completely without a) full stops and b) coherent trains of thought.
It’s too early in the day for this shit.
Please, from the bottom of my heart, keep this kind of shit out of your comments on people’s fanworks. It’s not helpful. It’s downright depressing, and all authors take away from it is that you hate everything that they wrote about and carefully tagged for, but you chose to read it and get angry about it anyway. Why would you even read something you know you will hate? Why would you then rant to the author about hating it? Why? Do you know you can read things you like? Do you know there’s a thing called outside? Do you know chocolate exists? And ice cream? Those are pretty good. Please consume those instead. Thanks.
knitting in the dark 